In a moment

In this fleeting moment under the clouds

Eyes closed and a dream spinning

As the wind blows and silence turns sweet

A thought comes up and still it stays

Keeps me afloat and at steady pace…

My hands do not quiver

My gaze does not shift

No conflict in these eyes

No sorrow in that touch

But a new smile on her face

And a song on her lips.

Let me savor this moment

Let me hold it tight…

I was waiting for an answer

Maybe its happiness, maybe it is…

My vacation so far...

Being a medical student is not easy…well, that’s what I hear around me all the time anyway. I wouldn’t really know about it, I’ve just somehow finished my first MB exams. The phase I’m going through now is what most of my seniors have named “the last vacation your going to have in a long time”….So I decided I might write down about this momentous occasion!

When vacation started (for some of us that meant just after theory exams) there was an immediate flurry of excitement.
“Hey what r we going to do?”
“I’m gonna go home n sleep for the next 2 days”
“I’m going to hang out with friends”
“We’re planning an all-India tour”
“I’m going abroad!!”
“When r u inviting me to ur place??”
“When r u coming to my place”
“What about the juniors?”
………….
The list goes on….
Two days later, we all meet again to file some forms for the university. A glimpse of the situation then:
“I’m so bored!”
“Me too!”
“I just sleep n watch TV”
“Well…at least its guilt free this time…”
“I wonder when class starts...”
“I still haven’t seen the juniors”
“It’s just started…we’ll probably start having a blast soon…”
“You think..?”

So the last vacation for a long time didn’t start off to well. But we haven’t lost heart. I don’t think cmc 52 is that easy to defeat!
So ppl start planning out their vacation forcefully…
“You’d better invite me for Ramzan celebration…or else”
“Ok…forget the all-India tour…how about north India?”
“What do u mean too expensive??!!”
“Fine...we’ll settle for just a city!”

I think the starting point for the mayhem to start was Eid. Invitations were accepted,(or forced into accepting),waistlines were neglected…and major fun was had..
My personal experience was at my best friend’s house. She invited me and other friends over for lunch on Eid. After the totally superb food,gracious hospitality...we sit down to chat…but then one of my brilliant friends decides that we should go for a walk…I start a talk on the 7 Don’t after a meal, with walking immediately after a heavy meal being one of them.10 seconds later I’m walking across a national highway with 10 other pals…!

Walked along a busy highway, crossed 2 rail lines(I went pretty hyper at this point), asked directions to lots of people, watched those people arguing over the directions, walked across a fishery harbor(glad to note olfactory sensations were optimal…hee hee),and finally reached the beach…
But I have to admit, it was fun. We went to the beach…it was totally different from the scene at the calicut beach hotspots. I saw lines of seashells scattered about...I can’t even remember the last time I saw so many of them

The day was spent with friends and family…I can’t think of anything more pleasing…

Now, most people who have known me won’t believe half of what I’m going to write next. But its true…it really is!
My friends and I were simply aimlessly wasting time when we found out that our college adventure sports club has arranged a 2-day program. So we set off on something I was sure would me a total embarrassment for me. This brings me to my little secret…actually it’s more common knowledge by now: I’m athletically challenged. I’m not quite sure of this term’s usage but I mean to say that I’m totally bad at anything that involves physical exertion…..or let alone, anything that involves a ball! Now imagine someone like that at an adventure sports meet!
But the adrenoventure(that was the name of the prog) turned out to be fun…There was Parasailing, Russian ladder, jhummering, valley crossing etc….I am pleased to announce that I flew…as in I Para-sailed… Well I did get nicely from my parents when I got home, but it was worth it…!! hopefully i'll add photos of that later...

And of course...my most productive work during the holiday: My beloved blog..!
Glad to see more people joining….keep joining and commenting

So that’s my vacation so far… there r more plans in the bag...n I’m sure I’ve missed out one or two cool things that should have been written here...But I don’t want the rest of my holidays to get jinxed… ;)

Metamorphosis...

You and I, we wait our turn,

We wait for transition to reach our turn,

As change inevitable revolves in time,

But all that really occurs is fate sublime…

For our hearts to feel an urge

Let me sing of another tale:

Of a imprisoned soul of mighty grit,

One that will arise like a free spirit…

She was once too shy to speak,

She was once too weak to proclaim

She was once the downtrodden one,

But my dears, now the tale has changed…!

She enters metamorphosis, still incomplete…

All you and I see, with heartless eyes,

Are failures galore and the end of the road…

But she…she in her silent slumber beholds

With eyes still closed, but a heart so open

A universe at her feet, new love to meet…

She waits in silence for her time,

When no mountain, no trench, nor mist divine

Can stop her from flying,

Can stop her from Becoming…

So, do not crush her humble abode

Adorned with dreams and unsung hopes.

Give her time, for wings to unfold…

Give her time, for winds to catch hold…

Give her time, for metamorphosis complete…

Picture Perfect

I walk across the street, alone

Thinking that someone will know

Why people love with hearts of stone…

When you look: its picture perfect, yet so low…

Can you see my smile crafted for life…?

One with a dainty glimpse of all my lies…

Through those false frames, gaze at my strife

As the last bit of faith in me dies…

Do you know the feeling: of endlessly falling,

Of grabbing, at any hand that offers support.

And finding out that life can sting,

Even when misery and joy both remain short…

You can’t stand me rising up,

How can I trust my back to you?

You’d prefer if I just gave up!!

You know, I think it’s time to be true…

I’ve had enough of your damn rules

Principles that clash with what you do!!

What makes you think I’ll be your fool?

It’s all over, I’m about to choose….

Been lying to myself, can’t take the pain anymore

Knowing that no one knows the real me anyhow

All around, people cramp my persona to the floor

Well…with this last cry, I’ll take my bow!!

At the beach...

Still remember that day at the beach

Frolicking while fun and laughter we did teach

To the seas all around, the tress and the sands…

Now those times slip right through my hands

Still hear the spring trees billowing

As I run fast behind you following

They watched sniggering, those sly trees

While we learnt that sand can skin knees

Towering sand castles built on dreams

To save a princess from her step mom’s schemes

Tempted her with tales of freedom

Just to drive away our own boredom…

Etched our names on seaside shores

Hoping the waves would wash off the floors

And a part us could ride those waves

To deep treasure laden sea caves…!

I reminisce that walk holding your hand

Two girls dancing where water met sand

Relive the surprise in finding a starfish

As to who would keep it…I was indeed selfish!

Silently listened to songs of shells

On their echoes, we did tales tell…

They sang a lonely mermaid’s story

And of their land’s forlorn glory

And as night fell and the moon did mount

Many a constellation we did count

Still we lay in eager anticipation

Of a day at the beach every vacation…

A fire in my heart

There was a fire in my heart

One that could burn away my fears

One that could emblazon my desires

Strong and fiery, I thought it would persevere

Then somehow in life’s jostling

My sizzling flames slowly died out

Now all that remains are cinders

So I can barely feel the warmth

I can’t believe its gone now

Extinguished like rotted heartwood

By perhaps those vanishing worries,

Or by maybe that darkness overwhelming

I still wait for it’s resurface

To scorch back my destiny’s path

For now I understand the power

Of that blistering rage of my heart

It could’ve stopped me going astray

Could’ve saved my heart from falling prey

Could’ve held my mind calm and steady

Could’ve gifted the strength to be somebody…

And today I did taste back a glimpse

Felt a searing heat in my veins

Felt the need to battle my ghosts

Felt the urge to stand my ground!!

Today I sensed a phoenix song

One that was pent up for too long…

Today I found that a fire could rekindle

Even at times of utmost wintry pain

And know I’m off to retrieve

That roasting drive to its full glory

I’ll not be looking back now

At the scalded path I’m making…

Embarassment Scenarios

I guess all of us have had to go through certain sticky situations that were downrigtht embarassing and sometimes humiliating!!today'as incident comes under that category..(I wanted to present it in poetry form but that requires a bit more thinking on my part...and these r not things which i wish to contemplate further on)

• Today..i went for an outing with my parents in a new jeans top.I had fallen in love with this top at first sight.I had been keeping it safe until today.So i finally wear it..alongwith very fashionista bangles n necklace n earrings n what-not!!I even wore more make-up than those sasumas n bahus in starplus!!So i feel very happy with myself n have a great time with my parents..I come home later to find...A HUGE price tag dangling from the back of my precious top!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;(
• I could go on n on..i'm your typical stereotype geek who gets in all unbelievable scenarios.But somehow talking about this stuff isn't making me feel any better!!

Happy Onam...

Its that festive season again in good old kerala....

well..it's not the same old season.i guess onam has changed a lot.I'm not talking about traditional changes..but changes that my generation itself has seen

For example the pookalam:traditionally while setting the flowers,certain simple rules(or rather..guidelines) ought to be followed.But the truth is i'm neither fully aware of them nor have i gone to any trouble to find out.When i was younger..i did apparently happen to follow those guidelines.But now let's face it...my yearly pookalams are more of a way for me to indulge in my eccentric styles than stick to tradition.I know this coz every year my dear grandma has the same smug expression on her face when she sees the flower carpets.But ammumma being ammumma doesn't say anything harsh.Please note this point:everything has changed around us but grandparents haven't...they are still legally bound to spoil us!!! :)

The next order of business...the food!!!Now this is where i am more than willing to change.Feasts set on banana leaves with dozens of curries can be mouthwatering, but can be tiring for your normal nuclear family.So the alternative:Package feasts.(Mind you.. they are just as good as the real ones.)But some rules are never broken..no non-veg during onam. :(

Payasam however has stood the test of time...it's still a major part of any celebration.But it is now more easier available.I for one love to make instant payasam!!

a lot more has changed..visits to friends n family has been substituted by time at home or outside!!i guess me sitting in front of a computer screen during uthradam is proof enough!!

Now i'm not someone to decide whether the change is for good or bad,but onam being onam and keralites being keralites we still manage to have a great time...!